Wednesday, April 23, 2014

delicious frustration





Found this in my drafts and figured I'd finish it up and publish it. 

I went over to Aaron's place on Wednesday during my lunch hour.  We hadn't seen each other in about a month so we had a nice chat and got caught up. We are both very busy people and when I think about it, its amazing that we're able to find the time to play as often as we do. Hooray for jobs in the city and lunch hour trysts!

I was hungry for his cock (don't look so surprised) and we soon found our way to the bedroom where clothes were immediately deemed a nuisance and shed. We have similar sexual scenarios that we hope to fulfill and talk of those fueled us.

I found myself first on top of him, his fingers inside me while I desperately thrust against his hand. And then, he was on top, teasing my wet opening with the tip of his length. A man can frustrate me in the most delicious of ways by being on top of me and inside of me, but not fucking me as hard or as fast as I want. Or even more so, by teasing me with the very tip and only entering me part way. Fuck. It makes me crazy. And desperate. Aaron did that today and it was so incredibly hot. He was in control of when to climax and being pinned beneath him, I couldn't do anything about it. He teased me, perhaps unintentionally but it served to make me beg him with my eyes. Had he been privy to rough play I would have bitten the shit out of him, but I managed to control that urge and only nip at his neck and whimper. He finally gave me what I was craving and I felt him pulsing inside of me.

I'll take that kind of frustration any day. 

xoxo,
Bella

Panty pulldown

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

dirty talk

It had been a minute since I've engaged in a steamy sexting session that culminated in actually having an orgasm. Sexting is kind of meh for me and usually I can take it or leave it. But sometimes...sometimes I'm in just the right mood or he will say just the right thing and I'm a goner.

Enter Cash the other night. I texted to check on him as I saw on Facebook where he'd had an um, incident occur at his home. That dude has the weirdest shit happen to him. Its truly bizarre. He's fine by the way but will be able to add another crazy story to his already expansive repertoire.

Anyway, one thing led to another and talk of a visit came up, as it always does and then, well, steaminess happened. As steamy as you can get over the phone anyway. Fantasies talked about and planned, pictures exchanged, and beautiful messiness occurred.

Yes, definitely a goner.  A panting, sweating, writhing, scream-stifling goner.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

one of those posts where I can't think of a title

Sometimes beautiful things get lost in the complications and messiness of life, sex, and relationships.

I respect that people handle things in different ways based on personality, experience, and all manner of other circumstances. That does not mean that I always get it. I don't understand how you can simply throw away an awesome friendship. I get the reasoning based on a messy past but I disagree with the solution of "sorry, best wishes". In my opinion, both parties are missing out on the awesome that is the other person. An awesome they both know very well exists. Its a total unnecessary shortchanging. But whaddaya gonna do? Inconsistency has always been the name of the game in this situation and I should not have been surprised. Best wishes indeed.

I missed out on an opportunity to see Aaron this week due to a work obligation. But plans are to make up for that very soon I hope. Dave asked to see me the other day but I wasn't in the mood. I am now in the mood however. I'm also itching to see Cash again for some reason. We had very tentative plans a couple of weeks ago and those fell through. But damn. I'm wildly physically attracted to him and as I've learned, attraction is a mysterious thing. The whos and whys are sometimes unexplainable. Attraction just IS.

I'm having lunch tomorrow with my very sweet and very sexy friend and first play partner ever. I respect boundaries but goddamn I'd like to play with him again. I'll settle for his friendship though and that's really not settling at all because his friendship is more valuable to me than anything else. He's good people.

Kiss me here.







Saturday, March 29, 2014

Changing landscape of the traditional marriage

I found this interview to be very interesting. I need to process my thoughts on it so am posting the link here for your reading pleasure and so I can find it again easily.

Why We Cheat. Spouses in happy marriages have affairs. What are we all looking for?

And here's a funny, because it made me grin. Thankfully, my therapist is a bit more open and less traditional minded.