Friday, July 27, 2012

Standstill

I don't know that I even remember how to write about sexy things anymore. Not too many new things in that regard have been going on and family life and work have taken priority, as perhaps they should. And yet, sexuality is such a large part of who I am and who I want to be. Exploring new facets of eroticism is something I want to keep doing if I can somehow make it work. And so I carry on the best way I can with my "real life" while trying not to lose that other side of myself.

Playtime with others has been nonexistent. I haven't seen C-Man in months and while 13 Messages and I see each other a lot, playing together is just not on our plates right now. There are sexy texts between Jake and I occasionally but no physical contact since our first and last make-out session. Jr. High and Girl Crush's husband (now ex) pop in and out of my phone's inbox at times but they aren't serious contenders (on my part) to spend any time in my panties.

On the other hand, Mr. Man and I managed a steamy date night a couple of weeks ago and I somehow ended up on my back on top of his desk in his office being fucked fast and hard. That will happen again soon I hope. And unless circumstances intervene, I will be meeting C-Man in November for a steamy few days.

I wonder what the future holds for Mr. Man and I. Will we continue to explore this "lifestyle" or have we had our fill of it, so to speak? I tend to think that if we met the right couple or individual, that we would delve into it again. But that is the tricky part isn't it? To find people that you each click with or approve of the other person being intimate with. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. In the meantime we aren't particularly seeking it out but wouldn't reject the idea if it presented itself again. How's that for vague and not definitive. It is an election year after all.

xoxo,
Bella

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