new things

Synopsis...Mr. Man is out on a date, things with New Guy (who shall be known as "Cash" from here on out) have been progressing and a meeting is in the works very soon, and my brain finally clicked over, stopped being a bitch and freed me from something that had been holding me mentally hostage for months. These are all good things y'all. And I needed some fucking good things to happen.

So, as I mentioned, Mr. Man went on a first date with a new lady friend tonight and I'm halfway waiting up for him and halfway recovering from some serious masturbation on film. I haven't talked to her but I've seen her picture and she's beautiful. Lovely even. Mr. Man has been chatting with her for a couple of weeks now and is quite smitten. Tonight is their first face to face meeting and sex was not on the table (so to speak) for tonight but you never know what may happen in the heat of the moment and he has full "permission" to do whatever, within our rules. Otherwise, the plan was dinner and the drive-in movie I believe. I helped him pick out his shirt, reminded him to have mints on hand and sent that crazy kid on his way. I'm crossing my fingers that they hit it off, and yes dear readers, you will be among the first to know.

Cash and I have been texting a lot and I'm not sure how I'm going to have my first meeting with him and NOT fuck him, to be quite honest. As I told him, I am cautiously optimistic about this. He's single at the moment, which is new for me, and I think a huge positive. He knows what I want from this and I know what he wants and they are simpatico. Friends with benefits, no strings, no drama, and goddamn it, we actually like each other a lot on a vanilla level. He contacted me on OKC and when I checked out his profile it was way different from the standard drivel, really interesting and well, he intrigued me. He's just...different, in a cool way and so far we seem to click well. Plus, he's hot and is interested in many of the same things sexually, that I am. We're hoping to meet up in the next week or two. Fingers crossed. I've already broken a few rules with this kid...I gave him this blog address, told him my real name, sent him naked pics that included my face, AND fucking came for him on video. If I ever run for public office and dude is pissed at me, I am so screwed.

In other news, I'm finally moving past some things in mah brain and that's good, although there are bittersweet mixed emotions still lingering that will always be there I suspect. My head took a lot of extra time to catch up with the reality of the situation and I am finally there and can breathe again. I know that's vague but that's how it is. Life ain't easy and thank goodness it isn't or we'd never learn anything from it. So sez I.

Oh, and lastly, I took a hot bath tonight and it was delicious. And no, Mr. Man still isn't home so stop asking.

xoxo,
Bella