I should go to bed as I'm about to fall asleep on top of the laptop. But for some reason I can't bring myself to get up to do the necessary things you have to do before going to bed. (Don't worry, this won't digress into another post about pee).
My mind is in a constant state of wishing for things I don't have. Things I feel like I can't have, don't have, will never have. Maybe I'm just tired but I'm in a melancholy mood. (Any chance I get to use the word "melancholy" in a post, I'm taking it bishes). Is my discontent the problem or the symptom? Is the fact that I just rolled my eyes at myself after reading that sentence a sign that I'm going insane? I feel like I could do so much more than I'm doing with my life. God I'm pathetic. Maybe I spend too much time online and not enough time in real life. Maybe this blog is just a distraction to avoid doing more important things. But what things? Hell, I dunno. Feeding the homeless or saving the orphans or something I guess. I just feel like something is missing. And then I get the distinct feeling that its something I'm missing within myself, not an external thing. Fuck that makes no sense huh? Or does it? Bwahahahahahaha.
Maybe I just need some Reeses Pieces. Yeah, that has to be it.