Wednesday, October 6, 2010

getting over myself

Ok, first of all, there are WAY more important things going on in the world than the little whine-fest in my prior post. I fully realize this, but I also am completely at peace with the fact that you are only getting one little slice of the whole on this blog that is me. So while my perspective may appear skewed from this piece of the ol' internets, rest assured, I'm not shallow enough to assume that my body image issues are anything short of petty and minor in the grand scheme of things. This is just my place to bitch about them. I have other blogs where I feed the hungry, adopt orphans and work towards world peace. Just wanted to get that disclaimer out of the way.

Secondly, wow, how do you people sleep at night with all of that LOGIC running rampant in your cute little brains???? I received a lot of astute comments, tough love, and emails from you guys and dammit if you don't make a lot of sense. I really hate it when that happens. I keed. I appreciate all of your thoughts and feedback on my little tantrum. Many of you made me think, made me look inward and made me approach the issue from different angles, so to speak. And while I don't have my sexy back completely, I know what I need to do to get it back, its just a matter of actually doing it. Implementation has always been my weakness.

I know that feeling good about myself comes from within (as many of you stated in different ways) and its up to me to foster self confidence and love myself. I know this. I need to reassess some things and refocus on being healthy, both for my physical self and in how I live my life and think about things in general. Its a battle and one that I tend to overthink, which has been my downfall in the past. Baby steps right? Less self-centeredness, more doing for others. Less "omg, she hurt my feelings", more "how can I build this person up". And lets face it, less chocolate, more elliptical.

Y'all are kind of awesome.


  1. this is your space, your place to say what you want.... continue ;)

  2. Bella, venting and ranting always help get emotions sorted. That you have a place to do it AND friends that'll listen is great!

    You're too smart, sexy and talented to ever let what another person says to get you down for long so, it seems you're on track already.

  3. If nothing else, your blog makes for a GREAT read! Love your style, love your pics, and really love your honesty and openness.

  4. Glad to hear your back, now lets get to some hot sex... you, I , we all deserve it :)

  5. We all do this once in a while. That is why we blog, well for the most part! LOL
    Glad you are back.

  6. Ranting and tantruming are like two of my BEST things! ;) hugs, Beryl

  7. So yeah, lets get to the hot sex! Which will be in Vegas, tomorrow with me!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) Cant wait to see you again sexy. Not that I dont already tell you that daily :) WooooHoo! Vegas!!!!!

  8. It's your blog. Have a tantrum. No need to apologize. Getting it out and not letting it fester is good. Also, helps you to examine things.

    You've never lost your sexy.


  9. If this is "lost your sexy", I'm not sure if I'd be able to read your blog without spontaneously self-combusting once you do get your sexy back!
    Anyway, I'm glad the comments gave you something to reflect on, and of course it is your blog and your blog for a specific purpose. I keep another blog that someone might think I only have a one track mind for running.

  10. *hugs* hon....and good call ;)