I'm wanting something tonight.
One is sleep because I am so tired I can't even see straight. And as a matter of fact, my inability to function properly today caused me to end up in the men's restroom at work. I am in such a fog lately. I love my kid to death but damn, I am so glad that I only have one. Long boring parenting story. But this is the only time I have to post anything so I will groggily proceed.
Another is willpower. I've kept up with my running since May but I have not lost a pound and it is so discouraging. Sure, I know its all about what you eat, even more so than exercise and I eat crap a lot of the time. But when I do eat right for a period of time I still get no results so I say fuck it, gimme that cupcake since it doesn't seem to matter anyway. Ugh. Its a stupid cycle and I hate it. I'm so unhappy with my body but can't seem to dig deep enough to change it.
I could add many more things to this list. Confidence, courage, organizational skills, gumption, the ability to turn back time, ambition, a hot fuck in a parking garage, patience, contentment, a guilt free bowl of ice cream fer christ's sake, blah blah blah.
Sidenote: if the neighbors fucking dachshunds wake up my kid I am going to hurt somebody.
As has been my day, this post is scattered, pissy and rambling and has no point really. But that's alright. I'm going to go eat a cookie and then to bed for me.