Friday, February 10, 2012

black & white, then shades of gray

I googled images of Paris yesterday until I cried. Today I purchased the only travel magazine my supermarket had on the shelf. Living dreams via the internet and magazines isn't exactly what I had in mind way back when. The urge to roam is a constant but so very stifled.

Sometimes I fear that I'm becoming the type of person that I used to loathe. Questioning and second guessing was never my nature. Want to lose weight? Quit eating shit food and exercise. Bills and money woes got you down? Get an extra job. Feel like taking a trip? Get in your car and drive dammit.

In my teens and twenties, the world was a very black and white place. Now as I awkwardly stumble toward forty, the multiple shades of gray threaten to suffocate me. 



  1. I get that. It speaks to me a lot, in too many ways for me to get into here. I can't say "it gets easier", since I'm trying to figure it out myself, but I hope you don't mind if I say it's comforting to know I'm not alone in this situation. Well, I knew I wasn't, but it's more meaningful when it's someone I know.

  2. I've been in Paris several times and still Google (Earth) images from that marvelous city. Don't worry, you're not alone :)